Sigh

So, this is my first blog... i guess ill start off with today- it was okay, woke up early, went to the gym, got a haircut, showered and relaxed at home. Everything is all good. But as boredom starts to creep its unwanted ass into my day, thoughts start to stir up. Happy thoughts,funny thoughts,angry thoughts,sad thoughts,scary thoughts..etc. As i sat in front of the computer screen, getting lost on the Internet and discovering new things. I realised how much i think about "love".


The word, the concept, and those little feelings and obligations that come with it. What does it mean? How does it feel? What is it like to have that person. What is it like to be walking down the street and the scent of her perfume massages your nose and millions of memories and thoughts scurry through your mind...? What is it like, to experience everything you would alone- with her.?I want that... i want to wake up next to her and feel her warmth, i want to be able to feel the heat of her breathe against my neck as she lays on my chest. I want my family to know who she is and love her just as much as i do. I want to be able to spoil her with my love and affection as well as with the little money i have. I want to make her laugh with the dumbass jokes tat people only laugh at so you don't feel stupid. I want to have that crazy sex, like go at it, scratching pulling, breaking shit around you sweating and dripping all over each other, but doing it out of love...But I'm only 16 right?! Soon to be 17 this August 29, so what do i know about love, how can i ever expect to find a love at this age? I cant, that's why i don't.